I’ve had an interesting week. My trusty G4 iMac developed a very odd problem on Sunday evening that meant I couldn’t use the machine properly. I spent the best part of two days trying to fix it and work ‘as normal’ on my little PowerBook laptop.
I only ended up solving the problem today! Not good because that trashed most of my working week, and I am heading south tomorrow afternoon so it’s not really a work day and I won’t be back at work till probably late Monday or maybe even Tuesday.
The problem made me look at buying a new iMac in a hurry so as to get back up and running quickly. There looked like a few bargains to be had, but in the end the bargain iMacs on offer weren’t really that much cheaper than the newer ones available today. I was going to get one after Christmas, but maybe I’ll bring that forward a few months and get one next week. A 20″ all singing all dancing iMac. It’ll be nice to have a slightly bigger screen. But heck, I feel bad spending all that money. Still, it’s not me buying it really. It’s my company, and it is a need, but nonetheless I feel a little bad.
Am I the only person who feels a pang of guilt when I blow a small fortune on something like this? It’s going to be an expensive week too because I am going to buy a flight to the west coast of America for the holidays too.
This is going to sound very strange coming from me, but the other day I was listening to a sermon called ‘What to do if you’re rich (and you ARE rich).’ The sermon was preached by a guy called Brian Howard from the Copperhill Community Church in Valencia, California. I’ve been to that church a few time, my friend Josh makes me go, he says I have to “to honor his hospitality” and if you knew Josh you’d know there really isn’t any way you can get out of Church on Sunday morning. I’ve tried it all, illness, yard work, even offering to babysit their two young kids.
Anyway, Josh gave me a small pile of CD’s this summer and told me they would be my ‘homework.’ I of course didn’t do anything with them. But then one day I decided to put them on my iPod (yes I have one of those too – I already feel bad don’t worry) just in case I should ever get bored of the 38 days of non stop music I have on the little thing. I really had no intention of ever listening to them, but then the other day I found myself on a two hour drive and bored of my music, so I thought I’d listen to Brian.
Most of the time I have an overwhelming urge to thump preachers, but Brian doesn’t annoy me that much and I like the people at that Church, so it didn’t seem so bad selecting him on the iPod. Anyway, it wasn’t the best sermon in the world ever. the usual stuff you’d expect from a preacher. But it did make me think once again about how amazingly wealthy we are, and how we fill our lives with just about anything to distract and amuse us, if only for a short while.
I have a nice little (very little actually) apartment, full of Ikea stuff. I have a sports convertible outside, an expensive laptop, the top of the range iPod, an iMac, DVD player, swishy TV, high speed internet access, wifi, cool cameras and video stuff and all sorts of other things. I’ve got all this stuff, and it disgusts me when I think about how much this has all cost, about how much money I have spent on myself as opposed to how much money I give away, or even how much time I give away.
In short, I don’t do enough. People are dying in the world of diseases that we’d take a pill and be cured of ready to get back to work the next day. As much as I could do it still feels like it wouldn’t be enough. That makes me feel bad. some people say we’re lucky to live where we do be that Europe or the US. But in reality the one opinion I formed in India among the rural poor people I met was that as rich as we are we are poorer for it. We have all this stuff, but we’ve utterly lost our way. I don’t know the name of my next door neighbor and his house is actually attached to mine! I’ve lived here over 5 years!!
This is a directionless pointless post. I have no idea what I am saying or what the heck my point is.
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Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 3:33 pm
Portland! [Unconfirmed at this time]
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 9:53 am
I can empathize, although having a lot of stuff doesn’t bother me at all, and I don’t have any qualms about buying whatever tickles my fancy.
Spending money keeps somebody in a job. For instance, I keep any number of Mexicans employed at the golf-ball producing factory because I lose at least 6 every time I hit the course.
Some people donate lots of time to good causes. I don’t have a lot of flexibility when it comes to time, so I just write checks. It all balances.
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 10:09 am
maybe the point to this post was simply for you to vent your feelings of being smothered by all the “stuff” that we surround ourselves with to simplify or streamline…which only ends up (sometimes needlessly) complicating our lives further. it used to be that people focused their collecting/accumulating/hoarding tendencies towards food or firewood or some other necessity of life to provide that cushion, that sense of security against the unknown that lies ahead. now, those tendencies clutter our homes and lives for various reasonings with “stuff” we could survive without. maybe it’s because we have succumbed to the ever-present brainwashing of commercials and advertisements that chant to us “you NEED this…you NEED this…you NEED this…”, even though it’s not technically a food/water/clothing/shelter-related item. maybe it’s because we have become indulgent people…too frequently deciding that we “deserve to be rewarded” and therefor reward ourselves unnecessarily. maybe it just comes from trying to keep pace with the current of our social construct of competition…”keeping up with the Joneses” (how ironic for you, eh? lol). whatever it is…you, our friend Simon, are just progressing along a path in your mind to putting a finer point on it all…that feeling we all get that sometimes it’s all unnecessary, sometimes it’s all too much, and that sometimes we are forgetting that we “are not our khakis” or our FRÖJSTA coffee table. it’s hard for us to always remember this ideal, because the alternative is so warm and comfy, decadent, and seductive…and who doesn’t love to be seduced? ;)
ok…sorry about the blog-jacking comment/rant. take care.
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 11:04 am
it’s not at all directionless. it’s amazingly accurate for how many of us live. just last week i was contemplating joining the peace corps because i felt that i wanted to live for a while without all of the normal comforts that i’m used to. when/if i ever finish school, i just might do it….
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 12:51 pm
“But in reality the one opinion I formed in India among the rural poor people I met was that as rich as we are we are poorer for it.” Now, that’s a pretty good point, if you ask me.
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 2:36 pm
Argh….I feel the same way sometimes. I want want WANT to not be materialistic and to try to stay in touch (however loosely) with what MOST of the world lives like. But, it’s hard to be surrounded by so much and not want it–all of it. I’ve been thinking of a new iBook or something to tide me over on my travels, I’m getting my brother an iPod (but not as humongous as MINE!), and I seem to always have something on my list of things to buy. Big things.Ah well. At least we try, I suppose.And you’re coming to the West Coast? Where?
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 6:30 pm
Go knock on the door and meet those neighbors. It will be a step. One at a time.
Wrote the following comment on Oct 6, 2005 at 11:43 pm
copperhill looks to be good people….
Wrote the following comment on Oct 7, 2005 at 5:11 am
We have all these things to help us communicate, but we stopped talking to each other a long time ago. It’s very sad really.Good post.
Wrote the following comment on Oct 7, 2005 at 7:19 am
great post simon. xx
Wrote the following comment on Oct 10, 2005 at 10:01 am
If I were your neighbor and knew you had all that stuff, I’d want to get to know your name right away! jkMy imagination takes me far quickly, so I’ve often managed to feel a “pang of guilt” just imagining having something I’d been considering shelling out a small fortune for, but then again, I still have tons of possessions I question purchasing. You hit the nail on the head when you pointed out how having all this stuff doesn’t make us any better off. I had plenty of friends in Nigeria who thought that if they could just live in America they’d be so happy, and usually it wasn’t enough for me to try to assure them that they were actually better off than plenty of Americans I knew.
Wrote the following comment on Oct 13, 2005 at 7:25 pm
having all that stuff is supposed to make you HAPPY! dontcha know? get with the program, man…
Wrote the following comment on Oct 13, 2005 at 7:37 pm
Good wake up call. I’m thinking about all the left-over food I throw away each day. Disgusting.